Busy Bee

Aigoo!!! Getting busier n busier by the day...
More n more work are charging towards me...
Getting so afraid now... Hahah...

Well, there's dis one event, where Im the project manager... Hehhe... Me, the PROJECT MANAGER... Dui... Sounds funny coz Im the PROJECT MANAGER... Kahkahkah... Can I really manage an event??? Im doubting n not doubting myself, both at the same time... This cause me to get even more confused... Weird rite... Hahhaa... :D

With so many things like, "Grooming n Etiquette" event, assignments, presentations, tests, quizzes, and final examinations just rite around the corner, Im really getting the sense of nervousness, curiousness, afraid-ness, buzy-ness, and all the other -nesses out there... Ahahhaa... HELP!!!

Now, really am relying on GOD to continuously gv me strength, power, energy and such to help me get thru the days... I really nid it...

Oh yeah... And to my friens out there, I nid supports... Hehehe... It is enuf dat nobody gets on my nerve and spoil my days... Juz go with the flow and correct me when I'm wrong, but dont, N I mean DONT try to control me... THX!!! MWAH!!! <3

Kuih Talam

Lolz!!! Im not writing bout food okay...
Juz wanna talk bout some 'muka talam' or tray face...
Hehehe... I LOVE direct translations... :P
K, muka talam refers to hypocrites...

I dont know, some ppl juzt LOVE to blame others juz so that they can make some stories more interesting... For instance, u left ur homework at home n u hv to pass it up. But instead, u tell the teacher that ur friend was hurrying u 2 pack fast that u forgot to pick it up... C, blaming others... Dui... Pathetic...!

Where was I going??? K, hehe... Now, the story...

It's about our church, our time, our responsibility, our sacrifice...

As for myself, I sacrifice a lot just to make it to church...
In order to b able to attend the service on Sunday, I pack up all my things including my homework, so dat I can complete them in Ipoh, where we hv a home there, so dat i CAN SAVE TIME... Well, it's about the QUALITY OF TIME rite... Ergh! So now, many hv done the way I'm doing it, so, they dont really face much problem...

Well now, there's a girl rite, much like a control freak... She refuses to go to church just bcoz of us, US! Coz we take much too much time to rest, to pack, to clean, to go back... Lol!!! She don't even know wat we do, the day b4 dat dat makes us so tired n need rests, but she can still take some time to criticize...

I wonder if she's in our shoes, how would she feel... Having to drive back n forth, back n forth, back n forth the whole day n there she stands and DEMANDING US to increase our pace... Grrr!!!

She's so DAMN WEIRD!!! Wat the FUCK r u doing checking out restaurants for their kitchen's cleanliness??? Nx time juz cook at home la, no nid to eat out... Ur so annoying... DO U EVEN KNOW DAT, MS ANN??? Juz remember dis... The next smile I'll gv to u starting from today onwards will b either accidentally or fake... Thanks coz u've showed so many of us ur true nature... Thx for helping to change our perception abt u... THANK YOU!!!

Sleeq - Cun Saja (Music Video)

Lirik Lagu Cun Saja - Sleeq

Chorus:-
Lagu ini bukan di radio setiap hari untukmu
Lagu ini tidak perlu kau kembali kepadaku
Lagu ini hanya ingin kau fahami ku sudah teruskan hidupku
Semuanya cun saja

Tak perlu tinggalkan pesanan
Tak perlu buat panggilan
Ku tak perlu lagi kalau kau cuba mintak maaf
Lupakan sahaja
Diriku cun saja

Duduk di rumah seorang saja
Menulis lagu cinta
Menggunakan kisah ini tuk ceritakan

-Chorus-

Alyph:
Cun hidupku kini cun saja
Sejak kita memang cun semuanya
Sejak pisah itulah permulaannya untukku berhati-hati dgn buaya
Ngap ngap pendirianku tegap
Jumlah kali kita bertengkar memang genap
Untuk aku ke tahap ini silap kita memang patut sama-sama kene sepak pak pak
Tapi bukan niat aku tuk salahkan dirimu
Aku sedar ku juga ada kekuranganku
Tapi kalau bersifat mementingkan diri sendiri untuk kebaikkan bukan kurang ajar itu

Duduk di rumah seorang saja
Mengarang lagu cinta
Dengan mengembalikan kisah kitakan tapi jangan perasaan
Ohh..

Walaupun ini bab yang baru ada masa arah ku tak tentu
Tetap rindu kehadiranmu, tidak patut
Kerna ku takut

-CHORUS-

Lagu ini,
Tandanya kamu masih sayangkan ku
Walaupun sudah tidak bersama lagi

Lagu ini,
Tandanya ku masih rindukanmu
Walaupun sudah tidak bersama lagi

Lagu ini,
Dengan lagu ini ku ingin memberitahu kamu bahawaku okay
Aku okay

Lagu ini,
Dengan lagu ini ku ingin memberitahu kamu jangan cakap tak boleh

-CHORUS-

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

Let Go

The latest adapted from Old Blog, 12 Jan 2011
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Letting it all go is not easy
Many sacrifices need to be made
Hurting ownself is a way to go
Although it's better to love than to hate

The pain of letting go is indescribable
No word can really explain
The tears pouring down are uncountable
The result of heart tearing pain



The best remedy to cure a broken heart
To spend time laughing and cheering
Not to be alone and sulking
But to be on your feet and running

A heart so gentle and warm
Keep it away from sharp daggers
The heart so loving and tender
Deserves to be treated better

...

Adapted from Old Blog, Nov 2009
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This is my story once upon a time
When I was young and love was blind
I fell for every boy I saw
I fell straight into the monster's claw

Felt like it's the end of life
When rejected and kicked aside
Became a huge mess hard to clean
Own fault for being so mean

Nobody likes any boyish girls
But girly acts make me wanna hurl
Others say I need to clean up my act
I say I don't give a fuck bout that

Felt so fucked up bout being dissed
Felt so angry bout being pissed
So very frustrated that Im lonely
Afraid Im left with nobody...

Tribute to YOU

From Old Blog (Sept, 2009)
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Sometimes I feel so hurt
Feeling so bad I couldnt cope
Not knowing who to turn to
Feeling so lost without hope

That's when i think of you
About all the things you give
All the love you provide
The moments You make me happy

Im so very ashamed of myself
To forget you when Im full of glow
Then only to remember you
Each time I am filled with sorrow

No matter how many times
I have turned my back on you
You never leave my side
Never fail when I need you

Though I often let you down
You never lift your foot and turn around
Whenever I fell hard on the ground
You pick me up and take away my frown

You bring along a funny clown
To cheer me up every time Im down
Your Love so many I have lost count
You really deserve to wear the Holy crown

Riot Poem

Sometimes you feel down
When the dark cloud comes around
Making you feel blue
When others look down on you

Trying so hard to understand
What they want and their demands
Trying to make them realize
I’m not going to wear any disguise

I am what I am
I never want to change
What you see is what u get
And I will not regret
I don’t care if you’re not happy
That’s because you don’t know me
Just shut up, stop judging me
Leave me alone, just let me be

Don’t try to act like a boss
Never treat me as a clown
I have my own pride
I am going to wear that crown

I stand for my belief
I fight for my right
Not going to give up easily
So you better go take a hike

I am what I am
I never want to change
What you see is what u get
And I will not regret
I don’t care if you’re not happy
That’s because you don’t know me
Just shut up, stop judging me
Leave me alone, just let me be



Taken from old blog, June 2009

Have You Ever Wonder

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Have you ever wonder
How friends turn to foes
When at an unsuspecting time
Everything turns out blur

Have you ever wonder
How some plans backfire
When you’ve put in efforts
Hoping the result gets better

It is really strange
To see people change
Without a prior notice
Becomes a sudden egoist
It seems like people
Are starting a trend
To start out friendly
Then ends up as a fiend

Have you ever wonder
How much a small word hurts
Stabs you like a dagger
In your little fragile heart

Have you ever wonder
How fast time flies
When you’re enjoying yourself
Treating yourself to white lies

It is really strange
To see people change
Without a prior notice
Becomes a sudden egoist
It seems like people
Are starting a trend
To start out friendly
Then ends up as a fiend

*************** Copied From Old Blog *************

Some Story

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It makes me wonder
How u walk around town
Proudly and bitchy-ly
But still wearing the crown

How do u afford all those
Being admired and rejoiced
By them all around u
And still being so poised

I used to spend my times thinking
How I could possibly keep it in
Keep my angst to myself
A feeling of disgust and envy

Our personality's far different
Your not like me, and Im not like you
But somehow I often wonder
How did I obtain a friend like you

Sometimes u piss me off
Sometimes u give me migrains
Sometimes I feel like murdering u
But sometimes, Im glad we're friends

*************** Source : Old Blog ***************

For A Special Friend

Have you ever wonder
Why the sky is so blue
Why the grass is so green
Why am I friends with you

Have you ever wonder
Why the sea is so wide
Why the fish dont fly
Why I call you at night

Have you ever wonder
Why the birds fly up high
Why the cats chasing mice
Why I am sad when you cry

If ur still wondering why,
Just stare at the fish in the sea
Stare clearly into the sky,
And ull understand y u mean so much to me

Ur smile chase away my frown
Ur voice cools my anger down
Ur eyes makes my problems turn around
Ur always picking me up when Im down

Source : Old blog (June 2009)

Beginning (New Chapter)

With red hair, walking confidently.
Ignoring staring eyes, minding own business.
Im back on my feet and on the ground.
Leaving behind the once Damsel in Distress.

Trying to act normal, strut down the lane.
A smile on my lips, eyes shining and gleaming.
Cover all the darkness and hurting pain.
Bury all those damn, fucking feeling.

Opening a new chapter in life, ending the past.
Changing once again, starting a new beginning.
Takes time, rather slowly but very surely.
Open a new book, throw the dusty, old thing.

Gotta learn to live independently again.
With loving family and caring friends.
Not every girl needs by her side a man.
That will only contribute to unwelcomed pain.

Now full of confident, moving fast forward.
Carefull not to be left far behind.
Thrive to achieve the full satisfaction.
The once thrown away, I'll stop to find.

Will not gonna give up, no way, not now.
I'll be back, just wait for me Dear.
Be much stronger than ever, not gonna dissapoint.
Stand on my own, leave behind all those stupid fears.

The life chapter is starting yet once again.
The past will be the hurtful ending.
Conquer all the fears and all the shame.
Three cheers for the new beginning!!!

Source : From my old blog... :D

Hye!!!

Hehee... Alas!!!
I've finally created my 2nd BlOg...
My 1st blog was too 'erm' to b publicised, so I created a new one so I can share it with others...
To b frank, I don't write stories much...
I prefer to just play with the words...
Make them rhyme... Hehe...
Just like making song lyrics...
But I cant really turn them into songs... Haha... :D
So, here's three cheers for my new blog, which, will b less gloomy than the other one... Ngee...~
Hooray! Hooray! Hooray! :)